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Today is my birthday. A special day, which deserves to be celebrated happily. As a matter of fact, I don’t feel happy today even feel chilly in bottom of heart. I feel no one really know what I need and what I want, but it is just a tiny dream for me to have a nice experience. What all I want is there could be one who actually cares me and shares very happy time with me. Is that very luxurious? I want to decide a canteen where offers my favourite food and to enjoy a short trip around this city. I just need to have a chance to get away from the daily routine and I need a pace where I can release myself completely. I had considered it would come true, but the three days’ experience let me down. It means I feel depressed, because he decided all from his point and let me alone usually, which way beyond my hope. I doubt that whether he could become my ideal husband. I knew he is a good boy, yet what he gives me is not what I really want and he seemed not understand me. With time gone, I recognise my happiness is flowing and left less and less for me. What should I do, I love him, nevertheless I can not imagine that I get together with him in the future. I am afraid that he may neglect my thought and true feelings and become more and more indifferent to me. I will never wonder to taste bitter of loneliness, since I have been alone for a very long time. Reliable shoulders are all I want. He was my dream, who ever gave me the hope that I would never be alone any more and brought tons of happiness to me. I believed in his words, despite I never trust someone easily. The fear that deep hurt would put on me. All I can do now is trying mending heart all by myself. Maybe never have great hope is the wise approach to protecting myself. I just can believe in myself rather than others.
